I'd Hate To Say It

So really all you can do is laugh because really, that is ALL you can do.
Its funny to learn more and more about yourself when you believe you know it all through experience.

"Experience"- thats a word I haven't been using properly, well now that I think of it.

I guess in a way I've become accustomed to picking and choosin what I want to use as an excuse of experience to justify my actions and my cause.

And now that I think of my REAL experiences, all I can do is laugh.

So I guess, I'D HATE TO SAY IT, but I shall try and play this silent GAME.

The real silent game

Because in reality silent is not my forte.

And now I laugh hahahahahahah!

Poetry

We're standing at your door
But you never answer
We show you what we can
But you never see it
We give you who we are
But you can't feel it

We ask ourselves what happend
but we can't seem to know why
Even still we keep going
Even still we stay trying
Even still we keep fighting

Is it Me?
Or is it You?

Somethings will never change...


This goes out to all of US.......

Trading places....

"Now I'm gonna do this thing a little different night
Im gonna come over n pick you up in my ride
Im gonna knock then Im gonna wait
Imma take you on a date
Im gonna open your door and Imma reach over n open yours"

Different approach or is it?

Deja Vu......

So I've been experiencing alot of deja vu lately. So much to even getting 2-3 in one day. What is deja vu? Well it's that one momoent you have where you suddenly feel that you experienced it before. Kinda like a replay. Why does it happen? To be quite honest I don't know. But I do remember a story that was once told to me back in highschool. It's a story of how we all have our own guardian angel. Before we are born into this world, our guardian angel would take us on a journey of our life. They would show us everything that we do from the moment of our birth to the moment of our death. After our journey is shown to us our guardian angel would erase that memory of ever seeing it.

I believe that we have all gone through this journey. My proof? Look into the mirror and see that lil indent right above ur lip and right under your nose. As the story goes, it is said that that's the mark our guardian angels leave behind after wiping our memory of our life journey.

So what does this have to do with deja vu? Well Ive read it somewhere that having a deja vu, is a sign that you are going in the right path in life.....

Me having all these deja vu's could only mean that I'm going the right path in life. I only hope this story is true and these statements are true.

But either way true or not, this concept will forever keep me at relief. Because sometimes we all wonder and ask ourselves are we going the right way?

I'm pretty sure some of you may be saying to yourselves " But I don't get deja vu! what does that mean? Im not going the right path?" No No thats not what it means at all.


It just means that you don't need to be shown that you are going through the right path because in one way or another in the back of your head, you know it already.


But for people like me who think alot ahaha needs some sort of affirmation.



Live life to the fullest, take those chances, risk it all if you feel its worth it.

I've been runnin n gunnin with heavy arsenal so I think I'll go hard. Because really I have nothing to lose.......

Mr. poetry (at work ahaha)

It's been a long time since then
Too long for me to remember
Those days when things were simple
But what is the difference now?
It makes perfect sence
I feel like a kid again
Kinda like that schoolyard thing
We are playing a silent game
No rules, no restrictions, just time
It's not a matter of if you can because you can
It's only a matter of if you want to
If you want, let me show you and take you higher
Let my song get you higher
A small voice whispers but you can't hear it
Maybe because everything around you is too loud
An event is taking place place but you can't see it
Maybe because there's so much going on you can't notice it
The beauty of it all is subtle
It means more when seen
It mean more when heard
So right now I embrace the fight
A fight worth losing
Atleast to say I fought the war

So again at most we'll play a silent game...

With no rules, no restrictions, just time......

Mr. Lyricist

hello, its nice to see you, its been awhile since that day I met you
so where did you go and for how long, ive missed you so
its been so hard for me to not see thee, ive been waiting for so long

You knocked on my door and there you were standing infront of me
I couldn't believe what my eyes did see, is this really happening to me........


This is only the beginning.....

Music as my speaker.....

So I'm at work and I'm the only alone and I'm listening to music I brought. One of things that keep my mind at state is music. Music is life, life is music. The different notes that create a melody are the same as the ups and downs of everyday life. Its a beautiful struggle we all must live through because without it there's no meaning to live, which is to learn. We weren't created as perfect creatures but blank slates just waiting to be filled with knowledge.

I for one can say I live through my music and let my music live through me......

There's one song inparticular that im listening to that really acts as my speaker.......

For some reason I'm stuttering and I don't know what's happened to me, I keep stuttering.

Mayb it's a silent game...

Making movements.